In The Moment In Time

It is really weird what I’m feeling…
It is really amazing, the connection that I feel
So strong between us and everything…

It is so sweet
To fall thinking of your eyes
Different from mine
But alike in spirit
Expectations
Emotions
Dreams
Illusions
And experiences
It is especially the experiences

We are bound by
A thin and invisible thread
Woven with
Our tears…
Our suffering without meaning…
Our losses so hard…

This evening,
The moon is teasing…
Wherever I am
It is our destiny
I love you…
To have loved your thoughts
The way you look…

I never thought that something I could never hold
Will take possession of my heart but most of my mind
I really have no more thoughts of how much love there was
In all our actions and words
I breathe for you… and everything is alive…

But now,
I cannot stop thinking about it
Every time I think of you…
My thoughts of you…
Come to me…
Come into my heart and mind…
And from there…
You never move

All Here

I don’t know how to start…
As the wind blows the words on my face, the mist
Take it all right at the same moment
Lost in the sea of my thoughts
I never cast my self away
I never struggle to swim, I keep calm and drifting

Now,  I’m high by just looking at the sky
And the sunshine kiss my face, happiness
In silence, I listen to my heart
I find my words
Truth and awareness

They are all here…
From the very beginning…

One Shot

It’s over, you are gone…

Why do we have to part while the love is still there?  Why do we have to cry when we said goodbye?  Why do beginnings have an end? Why do we have to meet only to lose each other in the end?

There are questions left unanswered, words left unsaid, letters left unread, poems left undone, songs left unsung, love left unexpressed and promises left unfulfilled.

I know in a relationship, one of the hardest things to do is saying goodbye and letting go.  It’s like breaking a crystal because you’ll never know when you will be able to pick up the pieces again.  More often than that, those who go feel not the pain in parting; it is those who stay behind with all the feelings that suffer.  You left me with memories of love that was almost meant to be…

At the end of our relationship, I’m embarrassed to find myself alone.  Unfair as it may seem but that’s the way love goes.  That’s the drama, the bittersweet of falling in love.  After all, nothing is constant but change…  Everything will eventually come to an end without knowing when, without knowing how, without knowing why.  And I must forget not because I want to, but because I have to…

Funny how my world becomes depopulated when only one person was missing…  It’s not easy to let go… Sorrow comes not as a single spy but in battalion.  It seems everywhere I go, everything I do, every song I hear, every turn of my head, every blink of my eyes and every beat of my heart reminds me of you.  It’s like a stab of a knife, a torture in the night, it’s killing me…

But I have to let you go because of the circumstances beyond my control.  I have to suffer if it would provide you happiness.  I have to cry temporarily to ease the pain.  Every beginning has an end like every dawn has its dusk…  It is something I have to accept with faith…

It’s over, you are gone…

But my life must go on… Goodbye doesn’t always mean forever.  There will always be a place and time where questions will be answered, words will be spoken, letters will be read, poems will be recited, songs will be sung, love will be expressed in solitude and promises will be fulfilled somewhere…somehow…someday…

*There’s no somewhere, somehow, someday.. Just one shot!
I wrote this many moons ago and as I read this, I can’t seem to recognize my old self maybe I don’t recognize the feelings. I was too naïve… I don’t know anything, I was born without knowing. But I am here and I am becoming…

 

Look At The Stars Tonight

My hand is shaking as I start to write with a pen

I am much at ease typing

Somehow I become a robot

Like a program, encrypted with codes

Will I ever decipher who I am?

Will you?

Who are you?

What are you made of?

Look from the inside of your eyes

What do you see?

Do you see me?

 

My hand is no longer shaking

But my words dissolved before it slip from my lips

Does the wind able to catch any of it and carry them to the stars?

Only you can tell

When you look at the stars tonight…